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Student and a professional procrastinator from DLSU.I suck at a lot of things including writing in description boxes.
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These photos were taken a few weeks back and I finally got around in editing and posting them here. :)
So anyway, yesterday was Valentines day and boy, was it
For us single people, its just another day.
Except its not. Flowers are everywhere. Red and pink hearts will flood your sight. My instagram feed was filled with cheesy couple pictures with messages as captions and sweet gestures captured in a 15 second video or slideshow of some sort. Feb 14 is just a reminder for us single people that we are indeed, single and is celebrating it with our lonesome (and some shots of tequila OR maybe an anti valentines day party? HAHA)
The traffic was horrible too because every couple in the city wants to parade their couple-y self in every restaurant. Add that to the fact that its friday and payday…
I literally got stuck in my car for 2.5 hours traveling to what used to be a 20-30 min drive.
Don’t get me wrong, I love seeing happy couples. I like being happy for friends that are happily with their significant others. It somehow gives me hope that one day, I’ll also have
some bouquet and chocolates to instagram and cheesy romantic gesture to take a video of and someone to spend valentines day with.
In a way, it kind of makes you jealous and makes you think to yourself how you also deserve a big bouquet of beautifully arranged flowers and a well thought out plan to celebrate the day or something, anything to make your heart swoon with giddiness.
I guess being a romantic sucks when you’re kind of cynical and bitter.
I don’t like sounding cynical and bitter but maybe that’s what happens when you’re single. Everything you say sounds bitter and cynical. Especially at this time of the year. haha
Anyway, I posted these photos because for some reason, they kind of apply to the romantic theme don’t you think?
And say hello to my little sunflower! Too bad it died 3 days after I bought it. Safe to say I indeed don’t have a green thumb. It did, however, brightened up my otherwise dull outfit shots a bit noh? (This was of course before it withered into a sad pale excuse of a sunflower 3 days after). It was really cloudy when I shot this so I was having a hard time editing it.
[Top from Zara | Maxi skirt from Topshop | Belt from Forever 21 | Floppy hat from SM dept store (? not sure haha)]
So, how was your Valentines day? :)
I hope it was better than mine.
So my birthday is coming up. I can’t believe I’m this *old*. Sometimes, I forget that I’m not a teenager anymore. This totally reflects on my way of dressing up. Somehow, I feel silly catching myself wear dainty, cutesy stuff and thus, resort to my all time black boots with everything combo. The pressure of being a *grown up* is killing me. I just can’t see myself with a job, paying bills and what not.
"I cant waitt to be a grown up" I said a few years back and well, look at me now. All grown up. Oh how I wish I never said those words. Maybe time will slow down and I wouldn’t be here with responsibilities and stuff.
I’m posting my wishlist just cause. Maybe its also a to-buy list for myself. As I’ve said before, I wasn’t really accustomed to birthday celebrations as my family didn’t treat it was a big deal so I’m really not expecting anything. Which is kinda sad and lame considering the fact that other people expects this day to be awesome and special. But I love posting wishlists because its nice to dream about getting your coveted stuff ;)
Go Pro Camera Black edition
I’ve been wanting to get my hands on this for the longest time!! My gosh! How I love thee!! :) For a camera enthusiast like myself, this is a must have! Its so compact that shooting in different angles is a no-biggie. Its also waterproof and takes HD videos which you can mount on helmets, cars etc etc. The possibilities are endless!! And its not that expensive too! I think I saw this at kimstore for about 20k. Not bad huh?
LG pocket photo printer
Instant printing is major trend in the “hipster community” these days and I mean, who doesn’t love instant prints right? I already got a polaroid camera which is nice but lets admit, being able to grab prints from instagram and being able to edit and print it is much nicer. This photo printer is an example of things I want but don’t need. HAHA I think I saw this at memo express in MOA for about 8k which is kinda expensive but I think will be worth it. HAHA
Coincidentally, also the
Fujifilm Share SP-1
which basically does the same thing as the LG one only this prints on the same polaroid film used in those instax cameras. Don’t need but WANT.
A new SLR
I’ve been saying that I will upgrade my ancient canon 450D but didn’t get around to doing so. Basically, its because I’ve been becoming indecisive of what brand and model I’ll choose. I’ve been wanting to go full frame but I’m not sure if that’s such a good idea anymore. I’m not really the best at carrying heavy things especially when traveling but I really want a DSLR.
But a mirrorless camera won’t hurt.
I was probably drawn to this because of its vintage exterior. My gosh!! This will be perfect for traveling!! Downside is, its almost the same price as a DSLR haha
Michael Kors Selma bag
Been eyeing this as well! I was about to buy one but can’t decide on which color and size!!! I heard that the large was too heavy for some people and as I’ve said, I don’t really like carrying heavy stuff but the small is kind of too small. I really wanted the studded red one but couldn’t find it anywhere! But the electric blue one seems nice as well. Hoping I could get my hands on these this year!
Doc Marten 1460 boots
Because I love boots and it seems fitting to finally own this. I also kind of liking the deep purple version of this but the color black is a classic and will match any of my outfits :P I’m a size 5 btw HAHA
or the 1461
which is such a cutie pie!!!
IPAD mini 2
My sister have the ipad air and for me, its just too big to fit into my little purse and also, I even though its supposed to be light, the case made it heavy so I think i’m going with the ipad mini 2 or maybe an iphone 5s in gold of course :P
I have a lot of things I wanted to buy that I think will always be permanently on my theres-no-chance-in-hell-you’ll-have-that list but i suppose I shall not include them here anymore. I mean really, there’s no point. haha
These are just the things on top of my head. Funny how when you don’t think about what you want, subconsciously, you know what it is but when someone asks, you don’t have any idea. And I’m sure I don’t make sense anymore (blame the coffee I drank plus packs of chocolate I ate) so I’m just gonna end this post.
More updates soon
Would you believe it’s actually December already? It seems not too long ago I was ranting about how my days are oh-so slow and then suddenly, holidays are just around the corner! Anyhoo, I miss blogging and ranting about the usual culprit of my stressful days (which is school and my lack of social life)
And I really do miss posting about what I wear. Seems so shallow but it always give me a sense of purpose. I find myself a little bit chirper when I’m wearing something pretty and I know I’ll be able to post it on my blog. Keeps me interested in maintaining a “pretty okay” outlook throughout the day.
Yep! Shallow’s the right word.
But alas, time constraints and low self body image ruined this hobby for me. When did people become so judgmental about what I wear anyway? It used to be fun till people started poking around my blog and started staring and listing down my flaws as if I don’t already see them.
[Top and skirt and socks from forever 21 | Boots from call it spring]
I got a lot to say but I guess I’ll have to simmer it down somehow. Maybe the next time I blog I’ll be back to my old self? Maybe.
I hope so too.
Its been almost a year since I last posted something for "School Strut” (a space on my blog where i post what I wore to school).
Aside from the fact that almost all my classes are at night the past few terms and I’m always too tired to shoot, one of the main reasons why I’ve been neglecting that portion is that I haven’t been dressing up to school anymore. Blame it on my long overdue stay in school that made me just too lazy to care about my outfits.
Yes. I’m not so proud of it. I have my top 10 no-fail skirts that I use almost as my uniform. And a few sweaters (you guys know how much i love sweaters) that goes with those 10. With those boring outfits I don, who would want to see it posted? :/
But one day, I woke up too early for a class and couldn’t go back to sleep. So I decided to prepped early for school. With a few hours to kill, I decided curl my hair. And I curled and curled (because my hair was so stubborn, keeps on going back to straight) until I was almost running late to class! *story of my life*
I only have a few photos since my camera died on me. I really need an upgrade! And I’m almost positive that my parents will allow it since they’re all bunch of camwhores especially during trips! haha
I love the plaid print on my skirt with a little fire blazing(?) towards the seam. haha Definitely a unique print in my opinion!
I don’t know if it was noticeable but the skirt is actually too big for my waist!! I had to fold the garter in and just wore my garter belt. You can see on the photo below the bulge of the garter belt just above my bum. haha
[Top and skirt from Zara | Heels from Payless | Hair bow and bow necklace from Forever21]
I wore everything sans the heels. Of course I wore flats to school :) haha Too bad my camera died even before I got to take a portrait shot. I so wanna change my profile picture on FB already. Anyway, I hope I can do this often. I really miss it. Makes me look forward to grooming and prepping myself to school. :)
What are you guys up to this weekend?
PS: What do you think of my lighter hair? comments are appreciated :D
And I finally changed my formspring to an Ask fm so ask away!! :)
Last month, I was fortunate enough to have tagged along with my parents when a business friend invited them to a wedding. Of course, aside from the fact that I haven’t had the chance to visit that part of the country, I was excited simply because I was just so eager to fly and be inside a plane again. I don’t know about you but, I feel so excited and giddy when inside airports/airplanes. Maybe because airplanes/airports always mean vacation to me.
Anyway, we didn’t really have much time to go to the beach and stuff with all the wedding mingling we had to do. We did have one whole day to ourselves after the event so, we decided to roam around the city. I took a bunch of photos but honestly, I was bummed because there’s no sun!!!! It was gloomy all weekend and well, I love backlighting my photos. And to sum up my bacolod trip, I will let the photos do the talking :)
That’s the end of it. I’m still creeped out by the doll photo. Reminds me of conjuring!
btw, today is my blog’s 4th birthday!! haha Didn’t even realized that till i saw the email tumblr sent me.
happy 4th birthday blog!
Tomorrow will be the start of a new term. Again.
It feels like I’ve been studying forever. Well, that’s what I get for trying to pursue my dream. I get super duper delayed but well, no worries. I actually kind of like being stuck in school rather than working my ass off. At least I still get to hope for class suspension when it rains and I still have my constant income (AKA allowance). Although, I’d be lying if I say I don’t get jealous at my working friends. Somehow, its kind of exciting to work. New workplace, new faces, a salary. My time will come so I just have to be patient and enjoy school while I still can :)
Anyway, taking a break from my super delayed china posts (because honestly, I have gotten around to editing them) here are some random outfit shot I took. And please don’t mind my chunkier figure. I know, i know, I’m fat. I’m trying to lose weight but its just so difficult and tedious. I have zero willpower when it comes to my favorite food!! :/ Any tips??
[Top from Jellybean | Skirt and belt from Zara | Shoes from Zalora.com.ph]
The weather the past few days have been nothing but gloomy, dark with heavy rains and gushing wind. Its a nightmare for people like me who have strong dislikes about the rain.
But thinking about it, it seems so shallow of me to complain about my negative feelings towards the rain when other people are struggling to keep themselves dry and safe. I should be thankful that I live about 20 stories up and am safe from the murky flood water.
My twitter timeline are bombarded with tweets from family and friends about the flood water that is seeping through their houses.
I don’t know what it feels like but I can sure imagine it.
All those wet broken things.. breaks my heart.
I wish the rain would stop. Even just for awhile. Give us a little breather.
Anyway, kudos to news anchor, relief/rescue operations guys, MMDA, PAGASA people and even the delivery guys for being out there serving people despite this horrible weather.
Let’s cross our fingers and hope we’ll have a better weather later and tomorrow.
PS: The photos were taken last month during a lightning storm. Am i getting better with the lightning thing?
Been quite off the grid for a while. These photos are way past their "blogging due date" but I’m posting them anyway since I’ve edited them already.
This is what my second day in Beijing (last march) consisted of. Actually, I am more than content with just being there and snapping away few snapshots of under appreciated dead trees (which looks insanely beautiful yet hauntingly so), beautiful chinese architecture was also a treat to capture. Add that to a cold weather to give me an excuse to wear sweaters, scarf, hats, gloves and other fashionable items you would wear not just to appear fashion forward but also, not to freeze your ass to death. It seems relaxing enough and yet, I had to walk a lot that day causing me to wonder why is my vacation turning into what it seems like a marathon?
Gosh. There were just a lot of people that day which made me grumpy but thank the high heavens for the cooperative weather. We visited a lot of heritage sites and there was just too many people around!
Anyway, here are some photos. I changed up my editing style a bit. I usually tend to lean over my yellowish effect but I decided to turn cool it down a bit for a change. Yay or nay?
That wraps up my second day. I won’t even bother to narrate one by one what I did because quite honestly, I already forgot the details of it. Hopefully the shanghai trip won’t take me forever to upload.
Anyway, leaving you with a cute photo of a panda I managed to shot whilst in the zoo full of people. Thank God for zoom!
Have a happy thursday! :)
These are just some of the photographs I took during my China trip last march. As you can obviously tell, I love taking pictures of dead trees! There’s just something about them that gives off a vintage vibe. They just make the perfect subject because every shot looks amazing with them as the main focal point. (well, at least they do to me. haha)
Anyway, we did some roaming around the first day. I was shivering come night time because stupid me forgot to bring my coat (it was inside my hand carry luggage) which unfortunately, was left inside the car back in the Philippines. All I have with me was my leather jacket which didn’t suffice. But hey! I’m still alive so that means I survived the cold!!
I have more photos to share which includes (but not limited) to dead trees, structures, my face, food etc.. haha so yeah. I hope I’ll be able to post them soon :)
It’s monday again tomorrow :( I hate this weekend-almost-over kind of feeling. But well, we all have to go to work or school or somewhere. It’s just the way life is. So, enjoy the remaining hours of your weekend!! :)
So I have nothing special to share aside from these photographs. Alas, it is safe to assume that my summer vacation (I have about a week left) is nothing but unproductive. Well, counting out the fact that I took summer classes (which quite frankly is the highlight of most of my days) and at times, tried to attend anti gravity yoga classes (which are fun! I’d like to do it on a regular basis but its just too hassle since I live far from the studio) I sometimes wonder what am I doing wasting all my time laying around doing nothing except change oxygen to carbon dioxide.
To make myself feel better, I just try to think all those times I took spontaneous trips with friends, those spontaneous nights with the gang and all those unplanned moments that always turn out to be unforgettable ones.
Okay. Now I feel better. And besides, after graduation, when will I have the opportunity to do nothing again? (assuming I’d be hired right after! HAHA)
So I guess you can say that I’m just.. savoring the moment.
Anyway, I’ve been meaning to post my China trip but well, my laziness gets the best of me. There are just too many photos to edit. :| Maybe I should do it after I get tired of doing nothing. hehe
Till the next! :)
Sometimes, I can’t believe I’m the same girl I was 5 years ago. So many things have changed about me that whenever I see old photos of myself, I’m either lusting over my old body or cringing at the sight of my chubby cheeks, weird hair and fashion choices.
Well, as they say, change is the only constant thing in the world. And sometimes, change is good. Let’s hope that it’ll get better and better for the years to come! :D
Incidentally, its been awhile since my last outfit post and well.. TADA!! this shall be my comeback post!
I wore this out to dinner with my family. Most of the times, its really difficult to choose what outfit to wear when I’m out with the fam bam. I wouldn’t want to appear overdressed when I’m with them but when they resort to the same old top and shorts combo, I couldn’t help but feel overdressed no matter what I’m wearing.
So.. what could a girl do?? Prepare their outfits so we could match! YEY!!! Sometimes they give in, sometimes they don’t. But its so fun when they wear the outfits I pick for them cause we then would look so cute (i’d like to think so that we do. HAHA)
[ Dress from Tomato | Belt from SM department store | Burgundy heels from Payless | Clutch from Mango | Necklace from 168]
Anyway, one more week to go and I’m free!! I really really need a break!!! :< I shall study for my upcoming finals and think about the awesome and fun stuff I’ll do once the term ends!
Leaving you with an outtake with a silly looking me. HAHA
Have a great weekend!
So, it’s been quite awhile since I last posted something here with my face on it. Maybe because I haven’t been taking my regular vain outfit shots these days. Or perhaps its also due to my lack of self confidence. Gaining weight can do that to you. Boo hoo.
Anyway, I was scanning my laptop and found some not so old photographs of myself. Probably the only set of photos I have with my red hair. I recently had my colorist dyed it to something neutral because I was thinking of going back to my brownish color but upon seeing the photographs, I kind miss my red hair and wants to dye it back to red.
GAAH. I’m so indecisive! My colorist will probably kill me. Or my hair could just die on its own due to too much chemicals.
In other news, I took outfit shots today! Kinda missed it :3 Imma try to post it as soon as possible. Finals are coming up and I’m gonna need to focus so… yeaaah.
I’m excited to post all my photos from the China trip too! So that’s something to look forward to. Sigh. I miss blogging. Makes me a ton better!
So, hmmm. Just a little update. Its now 5:42 in the morning and I’m queueing this post now. Till the next!