tearsofjoyce

Oh so slow

Another backlog post with my old hair. Honestly, I kind of don’t want to shoot with my red hair just yet because it’s kind of fading already. I want it to be more vibrant so I’m thinking of dyeing it again before the New Year comes.

New year, new hair (NEW EVERYTHING!! HAHAHA)

Anyway, I wore this outfit to a casual date.

With myself. HAHA

This was during the time back when I was so addicted to my magenta wedges that I almost wear them everywhere (just not to school haha)

[Top from Landmark | Leggings from Topshop | Boots from Forever21]

Anyway, days have been moving oh-so-slow after Christmas passed. I’ve been dying of boredom and too much food intake the past few days. My stomach is so full that I can feel it stretching every time I eat something (which practically every time I see something edible). I’ve been missing my yoga classes the past few days because I’m just so lazy to moveee. :< Must hit the gym or diet or do something about this fat I’ve accumulated over the holiday (and we still have media noche to look forward to OHLORD)

Anyway, just a quick post. Have a great weekend!

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What have you done?

Humor me for a second.

Let us say that the predictions are true. That Dec 21, 2012 is indeed the end of the world; Ask yourself these questions: Where are you in your life right now? What/How do you feel in this moment? Are you contented, satisfied of how far you’ve come?

What have you done?

I asked myself these questions too many times already. I didn’t even need the end-of-the-world bullshit to assess myself. And maybe it’s the reason why I refuse to believe that the world will end. Because I’m so not done with my life yet. I need to change something. I refuse to believe that it will end this way. With me being too.. forgettable. (is that the word I’m looking for? I’m not too sure but it counts)

Indeed, what have I done? Absolutely nothing. Aside from me being selfish and all.

So, what will I do differently till the 21 (and after if ever I survive, which of course is hypothetically speaking since I don’t believe in the apocalypse HAHA)

We’ll see :)

Anyway, if the world ends, I’ll be prepared for sure and will be wearing something pretty. I don’t want to die wearing my rattiest clothes. My soul will burn in fashion hell if ever.

PS: Sorry for such a random post. It’s 5:29 am as I’m writing this post and queueing it up and I’m still up because I can’t sleeeeeepppp. I wish someone can keep me company but.. MEH.

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It’s been too long

So, this is another post waiting to rot in my drafts. I don’t know why I didn’t post this sooner. I absolutely love the lighting here, thanks to the magic hour.

And also to my sister for helping me with the shots :)

So, I’m feeling anxious right now. My last finals for the term was awhile ago and it was awful. Do you ever get the feeling like you just wanted to burst out in flames and just disappear?Well, upon seeing the super, duper long test questionnaire awhile ago, I swear I almost wanted to die right then and there.

Fine! Maybe I’m exaggerating a little bit but seriously, I don’t know if I’m getting dumber or tests are just getting more tedious and difficult. (I think it’s the former. Must be all the junk food. HAHA and also, my laziness probably is taking it’s toll on me.)

Anyway, I was feeling particularly very lady-like the day this was taken. So, I got my midi-skirt on and build my outfit from there. I would’ve added a floppy hat but I didn’t want to be overdressed for a casual sunday with my family.

My current hair is far from this photo. I had it cut and dyed into a new color last Sunday. I would’ve wanted the color change to be much obvious but I guess you’ll have to wait for my new outfit posts to find out if its a subtle change or not.

But if you follow me on instagram: tearsofjoycee you would’ve seen it by now! HAHA

I actually have 2 more pending posts with my old hair so I guess that has to go first. HAHA

[Top from Robinson’s department store | Skirt from Landmark | Wedges from OASAP.COM | Chain bangles from Tomato | Blue bangles from 168]

Anyway, it’s been too long since my last legit term break! Last term, we didn’t have one at all so…. I’ll enjoy my empty days till grade consultation day. I do hope I pass all my subjects.

For my intangible Christmas wish, that would be it! (cause boyfriend falls under tangible, duh! HAHAHA)

Have a great weekend! :)

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Just a little something

Before I succumb to my academic activities and whatnot, I decided to procrastinate once more by posting this set of vain photographs. Just a little something before I finally commit to my studies and be a good student.

And yes, you caught me. It’s that season again.

The season not to be jolly, but to be persistent and hardworking. The term is closing to an end and it’s going to be my last chance to pass any requirements, ace my remaining quizzes and recite so that my professors will finally hear that weird girl at the back of the class speak. Yes, I dislike reciting in class. Graded recitation is like, my version of hell (among other things).

[Top from Robinson’s Department store | Mullet skirt from Forever 21 | Shoes from Shubbiz]

So, the stuff I’m wearing are actually nothing special. I actually think this could be a cute date outfit. But well, I wore this not to a date but bonding time with the family :P

And sorry for the grainy photos again! The sun was already setting when we took these shots.

Anyway, the week is just starting but I can’t freaking wait for the weekend already! Let’s hope the week will go by a little bit faster!

Fast forward please?

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School strut: Something borrowed

Film photographs have been my daily post for the past few days so, I decided to break the monotony and post this backlog outfit.

And can I just say that I love having a brother! A choosy, I-only-want-branded-clothes kind of brother. That’s why for lazy days (like this one) or I-don’t-have-anything-to-wear moments, I just go to my sister’s closet (first) and if I don’t find anything there, I just go to my brother’s closet and choose from his wide array of guy shirts with funny statements. HAHA Although, this time I just borrowed a plain black tee.

[V-neck shirt from Zara men (my brother’s) | Skirt from Bangkok | Vest from SM Department store| Boots and bagpack from Topshop]

Anyway, this song seems apt for my title. It’s from the movie “Something Borrowed”.

It seems apt for what I’ve been feeling, too. CHOS HAHA

This week will be a busy one I can tell! Hopefully I can still update this blog. HAHA

Have a happy weekend! :P

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It keeps me up at night

Mind boggling thoughts drain my time at night. I can spend HOURS lying on my bed, attempting to have a good night sleep and yet, after tossing and turning and trying to shut my mind up, I’m wide awake STILL.

I’m still creating fantasies inside my head; Asking questions that I don’t know and don’t have the courage to know the answers to.

I really wish my mind can have an on and off switch. That would be convenient. Wouldn’t it?

Anyway….

I wore this outfit to the cemetery. I wasn’t really ready for an outfit shot that’s why I just threw on random things together. But the place was kind of nice (and a little bit of creepy) that I decided to get it over with and shoot photos. HAHA How vain can I get right? HAHA

It doesn’t even matter that my keys were showing or that my outfit’s kind of crappy and/or normal.

I took advantage of the nice location. HAHA

And as you can see, I also brought my film camera so there are a few cemetery photos in the film I scanned the other day. Will post it here for sure.

[Top from Zara | Shorts from Landmark | Hat from SM department store | Shades from Jellybean]

I really wish I can forget the stuff that bothers me. I wish I don’t think about everything. I wish I don’t ask myself questions or wonder about things that will not happen.

I just wish I don’t over-think things.

Because it keeps me up at night.

And I love to sleep and I’m grumpy (or get really, really weird) when I don’t get to sleep.

I miss the days when I was so carefree. Happy. It’s been awhile.

Let’s bring the old Joyce back shall we?

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School strut: Break down these walls

Been having a lot of busy days the past few weeks. Stuff have been piling up like crazy! This is what I get for being such a lazy-ass and cramming my way to everything. And so, that’s the culprit in why I’m failing to update this blog more often than I would’ve liked. Not that anyone cares but blogging actually makes me feel better.

Sometimes, there are things better left unsaid. But those things remain inside your head, messing you up. And well, I’m not the type of person that opens up to anyone that easy. Maybe it has something to do with me not wanting to feel vulnerable.

And sooo, I just blog about things. I get things off my mind without it being too.. “out there”. HAHA Actually, there’s not much to share. But then again, that’s what I say every time and yet I have tons of drafts on my tumblr and documents protected with a password on my laptop. HAHA

[Top and necklace from Robinson’s Department store | Boots from Topshop | Skirt from Landmark]

Pardon the blurry photographs :| My sister helped me with the shots and we were in a rush in taking them because we were paranoid of people who might look us funny (because duh, we were taking outfit shots inside a parking building!) HAHA

Anyway, this song seems apt for today’s post!

Enjoy!

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School strut: Don’t worry

Pardon the blurry photographs. I’ve been having issues with my camera lately. It’s like, begging for its retirement and well…. HAHA

Don’t worry my little buddy, soon. (Hi mommy! HAHA)

Anyhoo, I remember buying this dress from a sale way back and I didn’t bother to try it on because the size tag said small and I was lazy and it was on sale. So I bought it. Only to find out upon going home (and was trying all my purchase like I always do after shopping), that it was a little too loose. (NAKS! small pero malaki pa rin! haha)

So, it was left hanging in my closet for a very looong time. Till one day…

I decided to wear a dress to school and was searching for one that could match my new booties. One look at the dress and I knew what I had to do. I gathered my sewing kit and decided to alter it myself. And so, here it is! :)

It’s still pretty loose that’s why I needed a belt. It didn’t have enough holes so I had to put it out like that. It looks more “okaay” in person than in photos though. HAHA

I look so weird in this photo. OMG WHY AM I POSTING IT? HAHAHA

And here’s my new favorite bootiessss <3 Couldn’t stop wearing them! They’re too comfy and prettyyy :3 Although, I have to stop myself because they’re getting too dirty and I’m always concern on losing the studs of which…. ~~I already did.~~ HAHA I lost one of the studs and that’s why I’m trying so hard not to wear them as much.

[Dress from Zara | Booties from Topshop | White button down from Landmark | Necklace from Diva Accessories]

Currently, I’m stuck in bed. I had a pretty awesome day yesterday with my friends and then suddenly, BAM.

SICK. Just like that. :( hope I get well soon. I really don’t wanna stay in for the weekend.

Anyway, happy weekend! And don’t forget your vitamins so you wouldn’t get sick like meee~

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That sunny Friday

One friday morning, my sister asked me to drive her to Intramuros/ Fort Santiago so she could take pictures for her photography class. With nothing else better to do, I decided to go with her and just enjoy that sunny friday. And enjoy we diiiiid :3 We acted like tourists the whole time! HAHA I decided to document the trip through my film camera (which was ruined half way through the day) but I’m still going to developed them and just hope for the best :)

Not to bore you with words, here are some photos:

(Looks like I have long legs! HAHA A tip: Ask your photographer to take your photo from a lower angle so you’ll look like you have long legs! mehehe *sneaky*)

(The friendly guard!! He told us where to go, what to do, what to try etc. Aaaaaand I love his uniform!)

Me with short hair? Yay or nay? HAHA

[White crop top from Topshop | Cardigan from Forever21 | High waisted shorts and belt from Zara | Hat from SM department store | Sandals from Landmark]

I hope you’re not getting sick of my face yet. HAHAHA I suddenly felt shy after all these portraits. Don’t hate me for being vain :(

Anyway, its monday again tomorrow. Have a great week ahead you guys! :3

PS: Figured out how to activate disqus commenting shiz! Yey for me. HAHA

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School strut: Can I keep up?

There are things that you can do alone. That you would want to do alone. Like, to eat a whole box of pizza or a chow down a bucket of chicken wings. Or to sing nonsense lyrics around the house with your hair up in a bun, wearing your rattiest clothes.

Having an alone time is nice and all, but being alone a little too often can get lonely. That’s why you have your friends. Friends you’d want to share the box of pizza or bucket of wings with. Friends you can sing nonsense songs with and be silly with.

But sometimes, your friends have other stuff to do. They can’t always be (physically) there for you. No matter what they say, they just can’t. And it’s no big deal because well, that’s just the way it is.

And me? I’m too tired of being alone with my thoughts. That’s why I distract myself. And I do that by……. SHOPPING.

If only my wallet could talk (which by the way, would be so cool) It’ll just shout profanities and curses! I’ve been buying impulsively these past few days. I blame it to the fact that its been super hard to drag people to watch a movie with me. Everybody got somebody to watch movies with. So I just shop. (May new stuff pa ako!)

ONE BIG ANYWAY…..

Wore this outfit to a rainy day.

The end. HAHA

But really, it’s nothing special. I just posted it here caused I managed to have my outfit shots taken by my sister (whom was practicing her camera skills then) :>

[Top from The Ramp | Riding pants from SM department store | Belt from a friend | Boots from Landmark]

Been itching to try new things, do more stuff or just drive somewhere far. I’ve been studying the roads and streets so I wouldn’t get lost. One of these days, I’ll just drive, alone as usual; and well, hope to get the adventure I’m looking for.

NAKS HAHA

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School strut: Constant conversations

Looking at the calendar this morning, I realized how I (went and still is) going through this year in fast-paced blur. I’m not even sure if I’m dreaming or not. (For my sake, I hope I am) I can’t remember much of the details this year. Perhaps I prefer the “highlights” to be locked up somewhere inside my brain and never to be spoken of ever again.

And with almost 80% done with 2012, I therefore conclude that this year, 2012, is definitely not my year. Maybe 2013 will be. Only one can hope.

I sound like something tragic happened to me when in fact, nothing ever happens to me (nothing exciting, i mean). I’m like the most boring, most sheltered person I know. HAHA

Pardon the messy hair. It was really windy.

Okaaay fiiiiiine, I admit! It was in a bun prior to these photos.

Anyway, had my outfit shots taken outdoors again! Although, the quality isn’t that good because I forgot to take it in RAW (always shoot in RAW especially if you’re gonna post process them! It takes up so much space but it is so worth it!)

Props to my sis for taking my photos! She was trying to learn how the aperture and shutter speed works for her class and I was a willing victim for this humiliating experience! HAHA People were looking like, “the hell is she doing?!??” HAHA

It’s been awhile since I brought out my Canon A-1 film camera. Can’t wait for the film to be scanned! I’m too excited! :3

[Crop top and boots from Forever21 | Skirt from Zara | Bag from Bangkok]

Passion Pit’s Constant conversations is on repeat. I can’t stop listening to itttt.

I listen to it while eating, driving, bumming around, eating (again), sleeping, while in the shower etc etc.

Point is, it’s my current LSS!

Listen :)

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Don’t get too attached

I easily get attached to things. I guess it has something to do with my trusting nature. (or not) That’s one thing I’d like to change about me (Actually, there’s a bunch but I’ll save you guys the list! HAHA)

It’s not entirely a bad thing but I guess, for my sake, I better try not to. My sister and I actually have a term for it, “koala-ing” HAHA (Because you know, how the koalas cling to the tree.)

Example: Stop koala-ing! He’s not even your boyfriend!

hmmm… KTHANKSBYE

The point is… I have to stop myself from whatever this is I’m blogging about because I’m not making any sense!

Anyhoooo… wore this to a chill sunday with the fambam! It’s been a while since I last shoot outdoors and I really miss it! Too bad I didn’t dress up accordingly.

Is it just me or my ears are weirdly small?

Had to edit out my brother from the background for the other photos except this one because I got lazy. HAHA

*scrolling back up to spot my not-so-seamless editing skills*

Ohhh, If only I could wear you everyday, cutie :3

My fave pair of wedge booties as of now!!!

[Crop top and wedge boots from Forever 21 | Shorts from PRP | Belt from my mom | Sunglasses from Jellybean]

Looking forward to photo trips with photography friends! Guys, please adopt me to your trips :3 Please?

Anyway…

Will end this post with my super feeler, trying hard, me-in-action (CHOS) shot: HAHA

HAHAHA k.

Till the next ;p

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I guess it’s all alright

Because I’m an awkward penguin, I’m always shy to have my “outfit” photo taken out in public! I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because of the “what-the-hell-is-she-doing” look in everyone’s faces that makes me want to just stop this blogging nonsense! HAHA

It’s so hard to find a pretty location with few (or no) people around! I’m especially avoiding those shady places with pesky bystanders that sometimes, whistle (the famous *wit wew* sound) or make fun of me.

Anyway, why am I so off topic right now? haha! Actually, I wore this ensemble to a beautiful wedding! And its actually a nice place to have my outfit shot taken except, I didn’t bring my camera because… well, it’s heavy and I didn’t think I could have time to shoot some vain photos! HAHA

So, I settled here, in my favorite spot. HAHA

I’ve been wanting to wear this for the longest time but haven’t found the “right event” for it. I don’t want to waste this dress for something so casual like shopping or what not (although, it can be!) So I decided to wear it to a wedding reception.

I love the slits on both sides of the dress! It makes it a little, sexy? Whatever. HAHA And even though it’s a little loose on the waist area, its nothing my belt couldn’t handle. I really love this metal belt! So versatile and useful :)

Decided not to pile on too much accessories and just wore these gold dangling earrings.

And if you guys are wondering why I look so.. whatever. It’s because I did my own make up! HAHA I have almost ZERO knowledge on how to apply make up. All I know is how to put on eyeliner and I’m done! HAHA I have to consult youtube tutorials for this but I also don’t have the right make up so… yeah, trial and error! HAHA

[Maxi dress from Folded n Hung | Shoes from my sister | Earrings from Forever 21 | Belt from Dorothy Perkins]

The title is from All alright by Fun.

Listen and you might like it ;)

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Bringing back the light

*Starting off this post with a huge portrait of my face:

*Now, I’ll proceed to narrate how busy I was the past week because of my finals:

The lack of updates in my supposedly “online diary” slash blog, is due to my ever demanding academic activities.

This week was sooo great! If you consider staying up late studying for exams and being overdosed in caffeinated drinks (resulting to a very weird “I-want-to-sleep-but-I-can’t-stop-talking” mood) great. But it’s okay. I can handle it. However, I’m terrified to check my grades :S I was not the best student this term. And I know I can do better.

*Finally, let’s talk about the outfit:

If this top looks familiar, it’s because you’ve probably seen this here before! Only, it was in a different color and it was a tad bit bigger. (remember this?)

I’ve always been the kind of girl that buys both if I can’t decide which to pick. Especially if it’s cheap and if I think it’s a great “investment”. And I think this lace tee is! It’s cheap and goes with a lot of stuff in my closet.

I’m still on my “burgundy/red/maroon high” and this pair is one of those “oohh I love this because its burgundy/red/maroon, I’m gonna buy it” moment. (I’m such an impulsive shopper!)

Added these tassel earrings (which according to my friend, looks like a chinese ornament!) because they were red. HAHA

Btw, this is an old outfit! Super duper backlog! If you follow me on instagram (tearsofjoycee), chances are, you’ve already seen it! Here’s the instagram version:

Me with better hair because I curled it then HAHA

[Lace top from Robinson’s Department store | Shorts from Landmark | Shoes from Shubbizz | Belt from Dorothy Perkins | Earrings from China (i think? I forgot)]

Hope I can update my blog more. Preferably not with “vain” outfit shots but more of my suck-ish photography? I would really love to get lost somewhere and just shoot photographs! But I might never, ever, ever be able to come back because I’m too dumb with directions (duh, that’s the point?! HAHA)

okay. Will stop now.

Have a great weekend! :)

School strut: I don’t like it

I think I shouldn’t have posted this outfit right before this other post because now, you can see that I hoarded these cheap-ass pants from Landmark in different colors! HAHA

But I posted it anyway cause it’s the only outfit post I got and after so many days of not posting…

I feel the need to post something. Make do, right? HAHA

This tank top is originally an old, ill-fitting tee. And in order to salvage it, I cut the sleeves off. Make do!!!

I wore this casual ensemble despite the sunny weather! And I must say, I SURVIVED!! HOOZAAAH! It wasn’t that bad, actually.

Well, if you must know I spent most of the day inside the comforts of the airconditioned classrooms anyway.

(I look so tall here *me thinks* and please excuse the humongous-looking hips!!! I’m not too sure if it looks that way in real life and I think I don’t want it to? HAHAHA)

I find myself loving anything in the shade of red (it’s always going to be my all-time love! I love red!!!!) I’m drawn to maroon, burgundy and anything redd-ish violet-ish lately. There’s something so mysterious about the color. And.. intoxicating? Whatever.

So, these pair of purple socks is a big check in my shopping list. I love wearing socks to school because they make my superduper awkward walking a breeze. And God knows I hate walking in uncomfy shoes (don’t we all?) and socks pretty much make everything tolerable. HAHA (K. Can I be paid for doing this promoting socks thing? HAHA)

I would have worn a hat if it wasn’t too flashy for school. ANYHOO…

[Shirt from People are people | High-waisted pants from Landmark | Mini blazer from SM department store | Socks from Bench | Ankle booties from Zara]

It’s the last day of August. Meaning…..

it’s officially the start of “Ber” months! HOOZAH!!

And contrary to my title, I do like it very much!

What I don’t like is the coming finals week. :< Can I please skip to the part where I see my grades and jump for joy? (if only!!) But I have to endure (not to mention, ace) the finals first!

Wish me luck!